The magic word

Allahu Akbar!!

Do you feel it?

Allaaaahu Akbar...

He's gretaer than everyone & above everything. He's the greatest of all.

He's my priority today, tomorrow & every remaining day in my short life.

It's beautiful to grasp its glory...Say it slowly..."Allaaaahu Akbar!"


Allahu Akbar when i decide, Allahu Akbar i say it with pride. Allahu Akbar is the light on the not so bright days.

It's my every breath & each heart beat. It's in every blink & each someone i meet.

With Allahu Akbar, I'll face the world. Good morning world!

Allaaaaaaaaahu Akkkkbbaarrr...

The bar soap container

This Eid I travelled with my family & some friends to Taba at the Southern of Sinai; it's really a great place with wonderful attractions. We went hiking & climbed an extremely high mountain where we got to see the borders of Palestine, Jordan & Saudi Arabia from the peak.

At the hotel while packing our bags at the end of the trip, one of my relatives entered the bathroom to check his stuff. He liked this soap container at the basin. It was rounded & with holes in the middle to prevent water from accumulating around the soap & dissolving it. He thought the hotel definitely had a lot of them & it won't matter if he took it with him home. After all, it's not expensive & it's made of plastic, plus the house keepers are used to finding missing stuff so they'll replace it shortly. He stared at it again, but hesitated & immediately left the hotel room.

Three hours later in the bus heading to Cairo…

The phone rang.

"Good afternoon Mr. A, this is your boss's office & he'll be with you in a minute."….

"Hello Mr. A, I hope you had a great holiday. Guess what, you earned a bonus this month…"

It was totally unexpected!!!

What can I say!!

وَمَن يَتَّقِ اللَّهَ يَجْعَل لَّهُ مَخْرَجاًّ(2) وَيَرْزُقْهُ مِنْ حَيْثُ
لاَ يَحْتَسِبُ "
سورةالطلاق_ 2,3

"And whoever fears Allah and keeps his duty to Him, He will make a way for him to get out (from every difficulty).(2). And He will provide him from (sources) he never could imagine.(3)"
At Talaaq_2,3

The Break Up Effect!

I'm already missing you

Though you're still here

The fact that you're leaving
Is torturing me dear

I'll always remember your days
And all the good things we did

How you spread your magic
Since I were a kid

I saw people changing
Inside all over out

Day & night they made prayers
For in their God, they have no doubt

You delighted the rich
And were generous on the poor

You were our only hope
For hell to close its door

For heaven's gates wide opened
And hell fire was locked

People were more tolerant
For all satins were blocked

Ramadan, If you insist on leaving
Don't take my soul with you

Your blessings, if you take them away
Right here it'll turn into a zoo

Ramadan, next year who knows
If I'd be alive or not

Till then I'll strive & pray
For my heart not to rot!

Hana Arafa

Ramadan 1430

Wishing u all a happy Eid ッ

You...Ur Friend or Foe?!

In a few days, an emergency state will occur all over the world. Nothing would be constant & no one would be the same. The Earth's nature will be altered. This phenomena happens yearly since before you were born. Have you ever realized that!
Conversations are held in the skies, doors of heaven are wide opened, gates of hell fire are locked up & devils are chained.
Everything on Earth & beyond it is changing & welcoming their generous guest; Ramadan...What about me & you?

We're not angels; we all sin everyday. And that's something we all share, even the best of the best of us. But shamefully we blame others for our behavior.
I blame you for my anger, you blame him for making you shout, they blame the red tape system( government's routine) for forcing them to bribe & the harsh life for making them cheat. And the most popular of all we blame satin for every single wrong we do.

Now what! For sure satin is a 24/7 devoted whisperer & he runs in our veins like our blood. And of course he never gives up ruining our trials of getting closer to God. And even if we managed to run away from his control & do a good deed, he's here to ruin our sincere intention. (I've been interrupted a lot during writing this, & almost got sick & shut down the laptop. But then i thought he's not gonna get me this time. I'm not gonna stop)

But till when will we keep accusing him of our sins? Is he the only one to blame?
Well no, satin has another partner, in fact a sort of invisible military agent inside us known as "Al Nafs"(your self). Your Nafs could be your friend or worst foe. It depends on who's the master. It kind of goes like this:

Nafs: "Oh you seem tired & so upset from Ahmad. You need to release your anger. Here comes Sara. Go tell her what he has done to you."

You: "NO, no. Ahmad's not here. I can't gossip."

Nafs: "Come oooooon! That's not gossiping. Chill out man, you're just removing the burden from your chest, nothing more."

You:"umm.OK. No harm done. Sara is good, I'll tell her.

That's the secret agent I'm talking about. Al Nafs that's urging us to commit the wrong & could even find a good reason to justify our actions & cool our conscience.

The good news is that in a few hours, the devils will be deprived from their free pass. And the whole world will be devil free for the next 30 days. So no more nasty whispers insh'Allah. Only you & your self.

So?

#Lets make a deal here:

1.Bring a paper.
2.Think & write down seven sins you commit a lot & want to get rid of.
3.Read your list daily in Ramadan.
4.Focus all day & cease to do any of them.
5. Ask God to help you stop them.

During Ramadan, there'll be no intruders. So you'll have full control. Do you think your Nafs could urge you to do bad deeds then?

Now that's the challenge, we'll strive to stick to our deal, & if one day a mistake happened, we'll repent & continue with the promise. Let's give our Nafs a lesson it never forgets. We'll fight in ramadan, so that after it's over, we'd remain winners. We are the master, & the Nafs is our slave. .

Ramadan Kareem

A letter to you!

Time: 1:30 am

Place: My desk

Dear God,

They said it's a special night, so I thought of writing you this.

In my room right now, I feel kind of excited. Well it's really weird, coz whenever I write a letter to someone, they read it after I send it, but now you're already watching my every word coming from inside.

I read a hadith for our prophet (pbuh) about tonight. He said that on the 15^th night of sha'ban you forgive us all except a mushahin or a moshrek.*

Well I swear right now that I'm not on bad terms with anyone, & I swear again by your name that if any one has ever done me wrong, I forgive them.

I've been trying to direct my intentions of my deeds to you ( though sometimes out of no where, something pops up to ruin it, but I have faith you understand the human nature & you have access to the deeper side of me)

Yours,

Hana

* "Allah looks down on the middle night of sha'ban & forgives all his creation, except a polytheist or one who is mushahin)

(sunna ibn maja volume 002, Hadith no. 1380)

A few magical moments

I always find this hour magical at this time of the early morning. SubhanAllah there's something about it we still haven' discovered yet. It makes me wonder if it's the blissful fresh air I inhale, the calm atmosphere, the absence of people, the twittering birds …or maybe something beyond that, something unseen & only felt; my state of mind or maybe the angels.

I love everything about early dawns; I cherish their every single detail & the calming sweet voices of different Azans reaching my window from all directions. I love how all the mosques around are never together when saying the Azan. It may seem to others as a messed up chorus but to me it's my daily pill. Listening to the uneven, diverse voices filling the night & echoing in the skies, chanting the same words is a peace of mind. It's like a universal melancholic orchestra.

The twittering is getting more intense by now. As if in a battle birds are fighting the ugly demons & satins that ruin our day. Such loyal heroes... I always feel they're supplicating to God too, sharing something with the awaken prayers. It's like the whole universe is whispering together to their creator; giving praises for their chance to begin a new day.

Haii A'la Al Falaaah
Haii A'la Al Falaaah

Its tune kept echoing in my head all day...

Listen to your heart

I opened my heart to see what's inside. To have a look at what's happening in there. I found some lines shattered all around, intersecting each other & moving apart. Straight, crooked, thick & thin, they all have been formed over the years.

I found dark sides & a few brighter ones. I saw familiar faces but in different sizes. I saw places & objects, thoughts & words, laughs & frowns, moments & days.

I heard something, so I leaned & my ear approached my heart. Something deep inside was ticking. No, that was not the sound I heard. It was deeper. I stood to close the window & stop any source of noise. I need to concentrate, to identify the voice.

I bowed with my ear again & held the heart in my hand. Has the sound gone, or was that only illusions!

I gazed at the heart again & shook it a few more times. I held it up in the air, turning it in my hand. On hearing someone scream in pain, I dropped it.

"Ouch! That hurt. Why are you surprised? You already know I'm sensitive."

_"Huh!"

"Don't you think I've had enough from you, the last thing I need is another fall!"

_"S...sorry"

"Yea, what's new! You always say that every time & then you drop me till I can sink no more."

_"Don't be hard on me. You're tender with everyone. I'm human…ok"

"DO YOU THINK THAT'S AN EXCUSE????!!!"

_"HEEEY! Watch your words; I'm the one in control here. You belong to meee."

"Huh! That's what you think, I don't belong to any one here you creature. You own nothing! You
think you could do whatever & whenever you feel like it, & just go with it. I've had enough. You turned me into night while I was born shining. You hurt me with wounds while I was created sound. You stained every corner leaving no place for dusk. Now what do you expect?!"

_ "I've done good deeds in my life, & I don't need to remind you of them."

"What makes you so sure they reached any where beyond your Earth? Bla Bla Bla. Such fake confidence"

_"And what makes you so sure they did not. Stop acting like you know it all. You're always interrupting me with your big No No's. Let me live in peace"

"YOU, let me live in the serenity I used to know. You grew up & thought you can handle it on your own!! You're destroying me every time you breathe. Have mercy on me. Stop your ugly thoughts, your misguided deeds. Stop ignoring my voice. Whenever you do something against me, I warn you but you keep rejecting. Ok as you like. Keep ignoring my signals & I'll be buried forever. Now let's see who could notify you again."

_"you never judge people, what happened?"

"You're asking me? Look in the mirror & you'll find out. Move. Look deep through yourself. Do you feel relaxed? Do you feel at ease? You always make me burn with your desires. You deprive me from the sweetness of being connected with up there. That's what happened."

_"You've never told me that, don't blame me."

"You stopped listening. Now pay attention to me. Get used to my voice…. Listen to your heart"